After anorexia :/ help :(?

I'm currently still recovering from anorexia and I am still not at the healthy weight range for my age and body type, I have been eating recently and because I have started eating it's like my body wants to do nothing but eat but when I've eaten I then feel bad for giving into my cravings and that I've lost control :/ I have just finished seeing my counsellor and fear I will relapse and become worse than I ever was, I have been hospitalised twice in the last 6 months :/ just need some guidance :) and please don't just say "eat" because that doesn't help :/ also is pale skin, dark bags under eyes, dry skin and not being able to walk for a long amount of time symptoms of anorexia? Thanks :)